This whole duality has been confusing. I’ve been, for most if my life, content to remain hidden. It’s only within the past year that I’ve come out into the open, embracing this other side of me, the true side. I know that the time will come that I’ll.have to choose who is real and who […]
I recorded and posted my second video earlier this week. It’s not as easy as I thought, and I thought it would be fairly difficult.
I will work on my content, finding topics that are interesting and timely. It’ll take some time to find my voice, both literally and figuratively.
Set aside a little corner to do my videos. If nothing else, at least it’s comfortable.
It’s been two weeks since I’ve moved in. I finally got a couch and loveseat, from Furniture Row’s SofaMart. It wasn’t what I originally wanted, and it was out of the price range I had wanted to pay, but I knew I had to have it the moment I saw it. Uncharacteristically, I chose to go with waht I wanted versus what I thought I could afford. I don’t regret the decision one bit. It’s beautiful and comfortable.
I still don’t have my bed. The plan is for a friend to take me to Dallas, where my bed is in storage, to go pick it up. I’ll get with my friend to make sure that’s still happening, or else I’ll have to make plans for someone else to help me get it. It’s a nice bed, a queen-size, with an oak headboard. I don’t have a dresser or a chest of drawers, but that’ll come soon enough, once I pay off the sofa!
For the rest, I’m slowly moving my things in. All my make up is there, as are my shoes. I have a few more things at my friends house, mostly my blouses, but I’ll get them there soon enough. My only problem is storage. I ended up having to buy a couple of plastic drawers for the time being, I’ll work for now. I’m not too fussed about it. I have so much more pressing things that I need to buy.
So, like I said, it’s been two weeks since I’ve moved in. Two weeks of being on my own. At first it was a bit of a shock, not having a place completely to myself since 2005, the year me and my ex-wife moved in together. It gets lonely at times, but the commute to and from work is a lot shorter. Instead of driving two hours a day, to and from work, it’s more like twenty minutes at most.
What I enjoy most is the freedom to dress up when I want to, and not to have to worry that I have to go home. When I get off work, I can go, change, and relax, drink a bit of wine, have a beer, read or write. I can cook what I like. I can come and go at my leisure without having to tell anyone. It’s fantastic!
The best part is that I can start adding to my wardrobe without taking up anyone else’s space. I need more shoes, more makeup, a lot more jewelry. I know I should have done so ages ago, but change is hard for me. I’m the kind that settles for the status quo until it becomes such a burden that I almost have no choice but to change. Kind of sums up why I stayed married as long as I did.
I know there are other changes in store for me, but this one was a big start. I hope to be able to have internet access soon, but I’ll have to wait to see how my bills line up, and if I’ll be able to afford it. Internet in Amarillo is ridiculously expensive!
I’ll keep you updated if anything crazy happens, but for now, I think this will be the last post about the move. I think I’m eager to get started with this new chapter of my life, and see what adventures are now in store for me.
Lots of love